Torn Open: Wonder, Order, and the Wild God We Follow

This year, I slowed down.

Not because it was easy—but because I was desperate to hear God’s heart again.

I found myself in Numbers and Deuteronomy—chapters I used to rush through. But this time, the detail grabbed my heart. The boundaries. The names. The structure. The order. And I saw it so clearly:

God is not the author of chaos—He is the Creator of order.

Where the enemy stirs confusion, God brings clarity. Where life feels wild, He anchors us in truth.

And I felt it: He was calling me to trust His timing, His process, His Word—even when it didn’t match mine.

Then today, I landed in Mark 1.

“He saw heaven torn open and the Spirit descending…”—Mark 1:10

And suddenly, I was in awe! The sky didn’t gently part—it was ripped wide open. That had to be overwhelming. I wondered: What was Jesus feeling? Did the weight of heaven’s glory move Him to tears? Was He as undone as I would be?

But Scripture doesn’t say.

It’s silent.

And that silence reminded me— sometimes, we’re not meant to know. We’re meant to wonder. We’re meant to trust.

Even in what God leaves unsaid… He is still speaking.

A SEEDS Reflection

S – Scripture Mark 1:10 + Psalm 46:10“Be still and know that I am God.”God gave us every detail in the wilderness on purpose—and yet sometimes, He gives us silence. Can we trust both?

Reflection Question: Where is God asking you to be still and trust—even when it’s uncomfortable? Trusting Scripture is trusting God’s voice, even when it doesn’t tell us what we want to know yet. Do I believe that waiting doesn’t mean God isn’t moving?

E – Exercise Jesus physically entered the water. His body moved in obedience.And the heavens responded. Our movement can also be an act of worship, a grounding reset when our minds are spinning.

Reflection Question: How can I move my body today in a way that aligns with surrender and slows my pace? Can I walk, stretch, or even breathe deeply as a way to practice presence—not pressure?

E – Eating John the Baptist came out of the wilderness eating locusts and honey.Simple, raw, unpolished. And yet his voice carried power. God often meets us in the simplest things—even in how we nourish ourselves.

Reflection Question: Where can I simplify my eating today as a reminder that God’s provision doesn’t have to be fancy to be powerful? What does it look like to fuel my body with intention and gratitude?

D – Doctor / Wellness Overwhelm can show up in the body—fatigue, tension, restlessness. God calls us to wholeness, not burnout. Silence and stillness aren’t laziness—they are restorative.

Reflection Question: What is my body asking for today that I’ve been ignoring? Do I need to schedule that lab work? Journal my stress? Say no to one more thing?

S – Self-care / Sleep We often want God to “tear open heaven,” but we won’t turn off our phones or slow down long enough to notice when He does. He speaks in the silence after we surrender.

Reflection Question: How can I create space for awe and rest tonight? What small shift (candle, music, journaling, screen-free hour) could prepare my heart for wonder?

Final Thought:

He could’ve parted the skies quietly. But God tore them open. Because sometimes, glory doesn’t whisper. Sometimes, it erupts.

Whether God is listing every tribe in Numbers or giving us mystery in Mark…He’s still the same—intentional, ordered, and wild with love.

You are invited to trust—even in what isn’t said.